Well, its only been a few days since my husband left and i am already falling apart. I am trying not to but i am not succeeding. I am being productive, getting the things done that i am supposed to be doing, like ordering the water to be delivered and calling around to find the right landscaper for our yard: i want to get the rocks out and some grass in. But other than that i am not well. I tried to talk to my husband about it but he just isn't in to helping me with this. The only thing i get out of him is "i know" and "i'm sorry". I tell him repeatedly that that is not what is going to help and ask him why he is sorry. He says its cuz he's not here to help. He doesn't realize that just cuz he is not physically here doesn't mean he cant talk with me. He wont talk with me. He is cutting himself off emotionally, not too much more than already, but enough to hurt me. If i cant talk to him about things then who am i to talk to? I don't know what to do. I dont know who to ask. I am afraid i am going to shut him out emotionally and we won't have much of a marriage when he returns.
I am sure what i am feeling is temporary, but it is no less real. I just hope that i can find the strength to keep my spirits up and not resent him for leaving me alone to fend for myself (i mean emotionally).

Yesterday was a very sad day for me. Yesterday i took my husband to the airport because he is leaving for a 6 month deployment. I know that i am lucky he is gone for only 6 months but it doesn't hurt any less.
I never thought that i could love someone so much, or that i could be loved back just as much (more if you listen to him). This is almost like a breakup you never wanted: your heart hurts and you just wish you could kiss him one more time. The only difference i can think of is that you still talk on the phone and express your love.
I don't know how long it will take for me to stop crying, but i hope it is soon. Preparation H is very expensive and i would rather buy shoes or clothes (prep H is used to reduce the swelling around the eyes for those of you who don't know that).
I am lucky enough to have family here who love me very much. I have been ordered to hang out with my aunt at least every other day. Also my cousin is taking me with her to her military ball instead of a date so that i can dress up (we always have fun when we dress up) and go have some fun. Without the love and support of my family i don't know how i would get through. I am a very lucky woman.
So all who read this, please send your thoughts and prayers to all the soldiers, military personnel and the families they leave behind.

I am very new to blogging. My previous blog was suposed to be a comment, so now a whole new world is opened up to me. If you are interested in knowing what i am writing of in my very first blog ever please go to http://freemechele.blogspot.com/.

Thanks,
Hekela

It is not fair that a woman who worked to support herself is labeled evil because of the job title. Everyone works to support themselves (well, not everyone but you understand). She was labeled money manipulative because of the place she worked. The fact that she worked and paid for her own home is wonderful!! I know many dancers who put themselves through college, got themselves and their children out of horrible situations or just worked to live and were very good people. They went on to have normal, productive lives. That a woman can be convicted of murder with no concrete evidence just because she was an exotic dancer (which is a legal profession in USA) is an atrocious occurance!!!
Please look into this case and decide for yourself if you believe she is guilty. If you come to the conclusion she is innocent, or convicted without enough evidence, please help to support her appeal.
I also believe that "Snapped" should be held accountable for the false information they provide. Please join me in boycotting this show so they can understand that it is not right to twist truths and support lies just for ratings.
Thankyou for reading,
Hekela